Last night I peed on two more sticks, just to assuage the panic I'd been in all day that the fancy new sticks were prone to false positives. Both (two different brands) came up clearly positive, no need to squint. I went to bed feeling happy. You can tell something bad is coming, can't you?
This morning a real gush of dark red blood. Not a dribble, not a spot, but a gush. Post-gush there seems to be not much more, but it's there every time I wipe, a red smear.
We'll review.
- Pregnancy #1, ended in miscarriage at 8 w (although never got to a heartbeat), bleeding at this point, day 13. Less than this, but a reasonable amount. Then stopped until the miscarriage
- Pregnancy #2, Chemical, enough blood for a tampon around this point. Then no more bleeding until I stopped the progesterone
- Pregnancy #3, Pob. A spot at around 5 weeks - really a spot, a little beige smear, bleeding at 13 weeks briefly, less than this. Then nothing
Doesn't look that good does it?
We'll see what the beta says.
Thalia,
I'm so sorry about the bleeding. Damn scary. I shall cross my crossables, however...
xx
J
Posted by: Geohde | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 07:55
Oh, sweetie, no. Sending you all my most fervent wishes and hopes for a good beta and beyond.
Posted by: Kath | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 08:15
I'm crossing my fingers for you anyway. Good luck, my dear.
Posted by: B.Mare | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 09:14
Not to be the eternal optimist (I'm actually very realistic) but I had 3 IVF pregnancies and the first 2 (the ones that made it to term) had gushing of blood early on. In both cases, I was told that an additional embryo had implanted and not developed (in the second, there were actually 3 barely visible sacs at the first u/s, so I know they were right).
I agree that it's terrifying but there's definitely still hope....
Posted by: | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 09:21
This pregnancy/bleeding thing just wrings you inside out, doesn't it? I'm so sorry it's not going quite according to plan - but also joining the crossing-fingers team that it's not significant.
Posted by: Hairy Farmer Family | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 09:45
keeping all things crossed and hoping for you....
Posted by: jane | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 09:55
FUCK! everything crossed over here!
Posted by: Angela | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 10:26
Aw man. That's so scary. Fingers and all other relevant parts crossed that all is well.
Posted by: Sara | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 10:27
Nooooooooo! I want to let me horses go! I'm still going to be hopeful, although, having been through this, I understand your pessimism. It could still be okay!
Posted by: Meredith | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 10:28
Oh, no. Keeping all crossed that it doesn't mean anything.
Posted by: Jen | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 10:43
I'm sorry Thalia.
Posted by: statia | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 11:07
*hug* I am stubbornly refusing to give up hope. That's all there is to it.
Thinking of you, sweetie.
xxx
Posted by: serenity | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 11:51
Oh crap, I'm going to hope that it's just one of the embryos ending it's run and that there is at least one in there, nice a healthy. Are you doing repeat betas? I know you are travelling right away, but can you get another one at some point?
Posted by: Aurelia | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 12:11
Thinking of you.
Posted by: Alexa | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 13:19
I'm sorry. Hoping it turns out to be nothing and everything is fine.
Posted by: Jenn | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 13:27
Oh no. I'm crossing all things crossable. Oh, I'm really hoping for you...
Posted by: PBfish | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 14:17
Oh no. I'm so sorry. Fingers crossed for you.
Posted by: electriclady | Tuesday, 28 October 2008 at 15:47
I totally freaked out because I bled every day for 2 weeks from the first beta. I had red, I had thick red, I had brownish, I had every color of the fucking rainbow, but it seems I am fine (so far). Keeping you in my thoughts
Posted by: marie baguette | Thursday, 30 October 2008 at 00:39