On hold to my clinic, to set up the appointment Dr Candour asked me to make, for a scan to check on my lovely fibroids. They've changed their phone system in the interim and now, instead of some somewhat jangly but not too offensive music, they have an incredibly annoying voice on a loop saying: "Due to a heavy volume of calls, all our staff are busy on other calls. Our calls are answered in strict rotation. Please stay on the line. You are [third] in line to be answered." There is no break in between the loop, although towards the end I did get the occasional ringing tone before she told me I was next in line. Very very irrirating.
So having finally got through, it's off to the clinic I go tomorrow, cycle day 4 or 5 depending on how you look at it. We'll see what the state of the old ute is. I know the big fibroid at the bottom grew a lot while I was pregnant, since it was cited by one of the docs as the reason Pob never turned head down. We'll see what it's up to now and whether they need to do anything to it to make the ute a bit more hospitable for a prospective new inhabitant.
I did nearly think I was pregnant this month, to the extent that I actually POAS on Saturday morning, despite not being sure when I ovulated as I didn't investigate that last month. "Not pregnant" it cheerfully told me. Then on Saturday afternoon my period arrived. Funny. I'm on the rollercoaster between optimistically thinking: why not us? It happened once and look how good it was; and then reminding myself, pessimistically, that I'm 41 now and no matter how good my hormone levels have alrways been, my eggs must be on their last legs by now, and given it took 3 years for us to get lucky, our chances of it happening again really aren't that good. Not zero, but not good.
Still, I'm hoping I can get the hsg (much less irritating booking system - you call and leave a message, they call you back) scheduled for the first half of the cycle so that we can try and get lucky again. Hope continues to hang out at my house. She's welcome here for the time being. We'll see how we're getting on six months from now...