Thank you to everyone who has been enquiring re boobs. I'm now fairly sure that the little lumps on the nipple are blood blisters. A bit similar to 'blebs' or milk blisters, but with blood inside due to over-enthusiastic pumping (I think). I've tried squeezing them but can't get them to go, and the same squirt of milk comes from in between them if I test it while Pob is feeding. But she now seems to be feeding ok on that side, and that boob has stopped hurting, no more shooting pains or nipple soreness, so I'm just leaving it for the time being. I know that's a head in the sand thing, but since I've got no breast lumps etc., and it's not hurting, I'm not worried.
In other boob updates, I've been weaning off the domperidone and am now down to 90mg/day, down from 120mg/day. As I mentioned before, I saw an immediate drop in how much I could pump, and it's dropped a bit further since then, but Pob has also taken to refusing or taking only a very little top-up at each feed, so I think she has simultaneously got a lot better at emptying the breasts. As this has become clearer, it's helped me see that the challenges we had with breastfeeding were indeed partially due to Pob's poor sucking rather than just the problems with my supply. Of course secretly I thought all along that it was 'all my fault' despite everyone's diagnosis of the contrary. It's good to know it wasn't all me - not sure why that matters, but it feels like an important realisation.
I can't really express how very glad I am that we persevered with breast feeding. Although many people told us I was bananas, what we have now is close to what I always wanted (well, I didn't imagine the pumping, but that has become less onerous as the feeding itself has got better). Pob strokes what she can reach of my breast and chest while we're feeding. She pulls off and grins up at me occasionally. She opens her mouth like a baby bird as I pull her in towards me and makes little contented 'hmm hmms' as she sucks. It's tremendously satisfying, and I feel very lucky that we got to this place, even if our time here will be short. I don't know what it would be like to have stopped earlier, of course, and it would certainly have given us more time when we could have gotten out of the house, but for us, for me, I'm glad we chose to persevere through the crap, that the domperidone built my supply sufficiently that it was possible for us to get here.