Just got the fertilisation report. To say I am disappointed would be an understatement. Although I knew that every cycle is different, I had not expected us to go from 100% fertilisation last time, to 55% this time. My hopes of having enough in the freezer to try again without a fresh cycle are now dashed. I know I should be grateful, but I'm sad.
The embryologist was really sweet. We had a long discussion about day 2 versus day 3 transfer. He told me that their stats are equivalent, and that they think they can grade the embryos pretty well on day 4 given the orientation of the cells, fragmentation, etc. He says freezing works better earlier, too. So he's persuaded us to go for day 2. He's also (at my request) going to talk to the docs about whether they will let us transfer 3 - which legally in the UK they can't do with a woman under 40 unless there are extenuating circumstances.
He could sense that I was really disappointed, and kept saying: “you should be feeling great, this is within the normal range for an IVF cycle, please don't be discouraged.” It was very kind but hasn't lifted me out of my discouragement.
I've been sleeping a lot since we got home yesterday, apart from going to the clinic early this morning so the nurse could do our PIO shot. They are legally not allowed to teach H how to do it in case something goes wrong, but the nurse this morning said she'd just talk through what she was doing very, very slowly and if H wanted to listen that was ok with her. Funny that a UK clinic should be so sensitive about this when US clinics send you guys home with instructions.
H is working from home and is hogging the broadband, hence my need to post from the blackberry. Thanks for all the good wishes. Transfer tomorrow.