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Wednesday, 16 November 2005

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fisher queen

'She has heard a whisper say/A curse is on her if she stay' made me cry. I'm so sorry honey.

shelli

I'm so sorry!

Man that sucks.

Shish

Oh Thalia, I have tears in my eyes right now. My heart is just breaking for you. I can't say that I yet know what you're feeling (my first egg retrieval is two weeks away now), but I know the feeling of loss, the feeling of hopes and dreams squashed, and the complete unfairness of it all. I am here for you, and I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

nina

I'm so sorry Thalia. I know there's nothing I could say that could possibly make things better. I know how hard it is to have those hopes, to have done everything you could, and to still have a disappointing result. Don't despair. It does get better. Take comfort in your husband, and that big box of chocolates.
Thinking of you-
nina

zhl

Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry. I totally understand your feelings on the age thing. Give yourself some to grieve. You've got the holidays coming up, and those will be hard enough. I wish I could make this easier for you.

Kath

I'm so sad for you, Thalia. No, it was not supposed to be this way at all. I'm hoping this sad time passes quickly for you.

I don't know what else to say except: I'm thinking of you all the time. I feel as if a little of my hope is gone now, too. Here's hoping that 2006 brings a return of Hope, this time twinned with her dream partner, Joy. I can't think of a better birthday wish, or a more overdue one.

wessel

Thalia, you aren't an idiot for having hope. Where would any of us be without hope? All the daydreaming about summer babies, well, at least you got a few moments of joy, a little reprieve from this hell. Don't begrudge yourself that.

How irritating that you have to wait two weeks before getting in for a consult. Ugh.

Nico

I have never felt the unfairness of life as keenly as I'm feeling it now, both for myself and for you and everyone else who has to go through this heartbreak. I'm so sorry.

ms pickled eggs

I'm so sorry. Thinking of you.

Megan

Oh Thalia, There are no words. "I'm sorry" doesn't come close.
Nothing should have to be this hard.
You are in my thoughts and in my heart.

pixi

This post brought me to tears. I *hate* that you're going through this. Please know that I am thinking of you constantly.

Liz

Thalia, I'm sorry for how you are feeling. I feel your pain and loss. It's not fair and is truly frustrating. Thinking of you.

Jan

De-lurking to say how sorry I am that this cycle hasn't worked. I had a failed cycle in July/August, so I know how horrible the reality is even when you've tried to be rational about your chances of success before-hand. The fact that you're able to talk about your next cycle is a good sign though - you're clearly made of stern stuff :o).

I think "the curse" as a term for your period comes from "the curse of Eve" - as in, it's what we get for coming from a long line of women that originates in her, who couldn't just leave well alone and had to *know* something. My mum referred to it as that too.

Manuela

Oh, sweety... what is there left to say... so so incredibly sorry... and keeping you in my thoughts.

Pamplemousse

T, I don't necessarily think it is a bad thing to have two weeks before seeing the clinic. After my first crap retrieval, I went in on the day of planned transfer and it hit me like a ton of bricks that it had all gone so horribly wrong.

You need time to come to terms in your own mind and time for your body to recover. You probably don't feel like it at the moment but you will. In 2 weeks, you will feel much more prepared than right now. Of course, I could just be talking out of my arse! Feel free to ignore me hahaha!

April

No honey, life was not supposed to be this heartwrenchingly unfair.

My heart is so heavy for the heartache you're going through right now. I am so sorry.

Em

I've been lurking for a while, but I wanted to say how sorry I am. It shouldn't be this hard.

Em

I've been lurking for a while, and haven't commented until now; but your post moved me and I want to add my voice to the chorus. I'm so sorry. It shouldn't be this hard.

Milenka

I'm so sorry.

Summer

I with could do more.

Try to be good to yourself and let others be good to you during this time. You need it and you deserve it. This is a huge loss and you are grieving. There is no shame in that. There is no stupidity in that.

Emily

Sucks it does. All of it.

Hang in there.

ovagirl

Thalia I'm so sorry. I too felt like a fool when my ivf cycle ended like this, that I was stupid for being so hopeful, that I was being punished for having the audacity to dream.

It will hurt and it will hurt and it will hurt but we pick our selves up and we keep stumbling forward towards that light.

It's gonna happen for you Thalia, it is. And we're with you sweetie,the whole lot of us, you better believe it.

Lut C.

A curse indeed.

Anna

I am just so sorry, Thalia. Of course it's not fair, and 'supposed to' doesn't even enter into it. Your schedule is whatever it is, not what you thought it might be, although it would be a lot easier if we could see this schedule so we could get our act together at the appropriate time.

We cannot reach the glorious day until we go through the cold dark night. It seems like the night is longer and more trecherous for some than others. I don't know why that is, but I hope yours is brief. Until the dawn, know that we are all here with you in the dark, waiting.

Hang in there and keep us posted. Be good to yourself and be well. You'll be in my thoughts.

LEB

I'm crying for you.

It certainly wasn't supposed to be this way.

Mellie

Thalia sweetie, I so wish this cycle brought you that which we all crave. You're so right in that this wasn't how it was supposed to go. Try to take comfort in H and the good that is around you. And when I see Hope next, I'll smack her for being so cruel to you.

Lori

I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this and face these emotions. None of it is fair and all of it sucks.
Thinking of you.

Meg

Thalia I'm so sorry, I wish there was something I could do. My heart is breaking for you.

reprogirl

Thalia, I am so sorry. I have been trying for a couple of days to send you some love, but I keep having technical snags and getting kicked out of your comments. This SUCKS. It makes me think of Sisyphus, rolling the big rock up the mountain only to watch it roll back down again. It's just like that only if the rock rolls over you and crushes you on the way. Have another chocolate. We all love you.

Flicka

I'm so, so sorry. How painful for you. Wish there was something I could do to make it better.

Lisa P.

Thalia, I'm so sorry.

Kimmer

Thalia,
I'm so sorry. Please know I'm thinking of you.

laura

Thalia, I'm so very sorry. It makes it even worse when you've starting thinking forward, to your future, and all those imaginings. I'm thinking of you.

Mary Scarlet

Hi Thalia, I'm thinking of you, and wish there was something I could do to help you with this pain. I know it, my first IVF ended the same way. I'm so terribly sorry.

Sandy

I feel like I've been a bad blogging friend - just discovering that you've been living with this. I wish I had more than mere words to offer to you.

Leggy

I've been away for a few days and just catching up. I'm so sorry. Ugh!- I wish I had the right words to say.

It's so hard having to go to work and pretend you care about it- I've been there so many times because of IF, grieving loved ones, etc. Your heart is breaking inside and you just can't believe that the world goes on as normal.

It just sucks. Sending big hugs across the Atlantic and the Internets.

Alexa

I am so sorry--and sorry that I can't find words that better express how sad I am for you. And I know that feeling, when a cycle fails or you miscarry and you feel embarrassed for having hoped--but know that you never need feel embarrassed with us. We love you and are here for you through hope and fear and everything else.

T

I'm so sorry Thalia. Please don't worry about your thoughts, hope sneaks up on all of us from time to time (I can tell you where to get the double locks to keep her safely in the closet). Thinking of you.

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