Read the other post from today first.
My E2 is 482, which is 131 American. Answer is to keep on going, same dose, and go in again on Monday for another scan and bloodwork. I asked why we weren't raising the dose, and got the answer that it wouldn't do any good - any follicles that are going to be recruited, have been, and it's now just a question of ensuring they grow. And apparently giving them more drugs doesn't make a difference. From what I've seen, other doctors wouldn't agree, but there you go.
I feel very frustrated with my body, and very worn out by the worry and the upsetness. H is also now upset - it's the first time he hasn't been optimistic during this process. I'm so sorry that this has beaten him out of his ability to believe that we would be able to get pregnant.
I have a question for you guys. I have booked the whole week off work next week, on the assumption that we'd be doing retrieval Monday or Tuesday, transfer Wednesday or Thursday, giving me plenty of time for lounging around, acupuncture, and recovery before going back to work on Monday. Now there is no way we'll be doing retrieval before Friday as far as I can see (if we do it at all), which would mean coming back to work at best the day after transfer, if not the day of. (There I go again, making plans so that the powers that be can laugh at me. I must have a masochistic streak in there. Or maybe I'm just plain stupid).
Yes, the question. The question is, would you go ahead and take the week off anyway? I have unlimited holiday allowance, so that's ok. And I've cleared my diary, so no one is expecting me. But partly I feel guilty as there's at least one big project I should be helping with that I'm leaving to others next week, and partly I feel as if I'm using up goodwill credits - yes, taking holiday is a goodwill thing around here. Also, I'm worried that if I take the holiday I'll have nothing to do but obsess about this, which would be bad. Yes, I know I'm obsessing already, but I think there is further obsessing potential. Perhaps even an unlimited amount of obsessing that can be done. On the other hand, I really feel stressed out and like I could do with a break, so part of me feels like taking a week off would be no bad thing.
As others have said before me, it's a bugger trying to make decisions when you're all hormoned-up.