Thank you for all the support in my many freakouts and stresses in the last week. And for the lovely comments on my engagement ring story. I'm glad you all got it. It seems many of us have had similar experiences. That's happened to me a lot on here. I think something is taboo, I write about it, and many of you chip in saying you feel the same way - the best example is probably my Obsession post. Boy did that feel better.
Sadly the stressing is not over. I feel stupid for worrying and being stressed when at the same time LEB's 12 week pregnancy is ending again, and zhl's cycle was cancelled for a response level not that different from mine (please go and pay them a visit if you haven't already). But I recognise that this is my stressful situation and I need to deal with it in the way I can best cope with. For me that means posting, reading, and commenting on your blogs, and watching crappy tv and reading a lot of newspapers. And Heat. But still I've spent a lot of this weekend freaked out about what might happen tomorrow morning. Dr Google has nothing encouraging to say about my E2 levels. I went and read through Julie's IVF#4 story as I remember her not producing many follicles on this cycle - the one that conceived Charlie - but she was ahead of me at this stage, so no respite there. And I can't get over how low the E2 is.
And again, of course there is nothing I can do about it. I just have to go to bed, go to sleep, wake up and go to the clinic. And stay as calm as I can. Please, although I know it's pointless, hope for me that this isn't cancelled. I can cope with fewer eggs, nothing to freeze, but I don't want to have to wait until I'm 39 to do my first IVF.