So much for being optimistic and letting go all week. My ovaries have done nothing. On the left I have one follicle at 12mm, one at 14, and two under 10. On the right I have four under 10 - between 5 and 8mm.
I had a nice doctor this morning, South African by the sound of him. He did his best to be optimistic but clearly the chances of getting more than 3 or 4 eggs is minimal - in fact, that sounds like a good outcome right now. In which case, what's the point of going through all of this? I cannot understand how my body can produce 5 good looking follicles on 50mIU puregon in August, and absolutely sweet FA in October on 150-200mIU. And let's face it I was really feeling good about this cycle. I kept imagining when the baby would be born - I know it's a horrible case of chickens not being hatched, but at least I felt I was DOING something, and doing something different, and the most likely thing to get us pregnant, so what was wrong with imagining it working?
Yes, I know it's not over yet. But even if it's not over, it's not the cycle I, and the doctors, expected it to be. Why does my body keep letting me down?
I'll update later when I get hormone results and instructions.