After the drama of yesterday, today seems like a bit of an anticlimax. Got up, injected self, decided to eat breakfast and...what do I eat? All those foods what I am not supposed to be eating suddenly sound very very attractive. I compromised. I had an oat-based cereal with no added sugar, some raspberries, and some milk. I will go and buy some almond milk this evening thanks to Reprogirl's recommendation, but this morning there was none, so I did what I could.
Lunch was better: grilled plaice, steamed bok choy, lots of watercress, some cucumber, carrot and a tangerine. Afternoon snack of pumpkin seeds, dried fruit and sunflower seeds. I'm going to make a big pot of dhal for dinner, so that will be ok too. I wonder how long this virtuousness will last. I think it is close to impossible for me to really give up wheat and sugar. I love to bake. Am I supposed to never do that again? Or just do it so that others can eat it? Dairy is possible. I do love cheese but I bet I could find substitutes. My current problem is that I usually eat yogurt at least once a day as a replacement for more substantial deserts, often with fruit and sometimes with maple syrup (yum). I'll have to switch to just plain fruit, but I already eat a lot of that. *sigh*.
I'd like to think that if I was sure it would make a difference, I'd do it. But I'm not sure. I do appreciate wessel's point that she just feels better when she does this. But I don't know if I do. I feel better when I'm a bit thinner, certainly, and if I stuck to this I would be as a lot of my bad foods would go (ice cream in particular, although I don't eat it that often I lurrrve it). I have very little ability to see if it's affecting the endo since I don't get endo-related pain as far as I can tell (and let me be clear, I am down on my knees thanking G-d as I write that) so I don't know if it's getting worse or getting better...
And it's just so impractical. I eat a lot of lunches in meetings where my only option is some dodgy looking sandwiches. I'm not good when I'm hungry so I've got to eat something in that situation. Also, it seems that I'd have to have a lot more time at home to cook if I'm going to forgo some of the basic meals that H and I eat in the evenings. We do already eat a lot of vegetables, most of which are organic, not much pasta (maybe once every two weeks). But we eat quite a bit of bread, and eggs. Clearly, I have to think more about this. It's a complete lifestyle change if I do do it, and I need to be committed. In the meantime, I'll continue to make the odd substitution, and eat according to the plan when it's not too stressful to do so.
Now I'm off to make a curry. First stims tomorrow, then I have to take the whole paraphernalia on a business trip with me. I had a minor panic about keeping the Puregon refrigerated but apparently it's OK if it doesn't go above 24 degrees, which in this weather should not be a big issue.