As you may have guessed from the title, there is now a potential issue. Of course, if you were less optimistic than I, you might have guessed that from the post below. But I was enjoying my happy day too much to want to spoil it with worry, at least for a few hours. For the same reason, I've decided to leave the post below intact rather than spoil it with my new bad mood. So if you haven't already, you need to read the post below first.
Dr I can't understand a word you're saying because my English is crap and I don't want to have a discussion with you anyway (Dr ICUWBMEICAIDWTHACWYA, or Dr ICU for short) just called. I have five follicles. Two on the right, three on the left. Three are at 12mm, one at 11mm, one at 10mm. Hormone levels: LH 4.3, E2 2000. Before you freak out, this is in the UK measurement of pmol/litre as opposed to the US measurement of pg/mol, so the US equivalent number would be 545 (thanks Mare!).
So the good news is I respond well. The bad news is maybe I respond too well. If all five continue to develop, we will get cancelled. If we have three, they will go ahead, but only if we sign all sorts of disclaimers about multiple pregnancy. Now H and I have discussed this, and as an academic option, we have agreed that we would do selective reduction if we have more than twins. I know that's a very difficult point of view for some people, and who knows how I will actually feel if it comes to that, but that's what we think we can handle.
It's a bit ridiculous because given we have not got pregnant for over a year on our own, what's the chance of 5 or even 2 eggs fertilising, developing and implanting successfully this time? But suddenly we have to think about this. If it was up to me I'd go ahead even with 5, but the clinic won't - not sure if that's a legal obligation or not.
I'm pissed off because the doctor was such a plonker. He kept asking me why I wanted to know things, and when I asked him for the units of the E2, just to be on the safe side, he asked me if I was a medic before he would give them to me. When I asked several times if I should continue at the current dose, he said things along the lines of: "I would have told you if we wanted you to drop the dose." Yes, fuckwit, I know that, but I'm asking you a question about what's going to happen if I continue, and what is likely to happen if I reduce or stop the dose? Why can't you tell me why it's a bad idea for me to stop taking the drugs or reduce the dose somewhat. He never answered the question. Do you guys know? Would all the eggs just stop developing?
I'm also pissed off because before we started the cycle I asked if I really needed to do the drugs since I seem to ovulate fine on my own, and they didn't really give me a satisfactory answer but insisted that this was the right way to do an IUI cycle. It's still possible they were right, it just doesn't feel that way right now.
I don't really have any option but to continue as I'm scared all the follicles will croak if I drop the dose. I go in again on Friday for a scan and more bloods. I've gone from being 100% convinced that in 3 weeks we'd be pregnant, (Stupid, I know, but I was enjoying it), to being 60% convinced that we won't even be able to try.
Where's that optimism when you need it??